~ heartache, absence and the damage of austerity.
So here it is, my blurry vision, fresh of the breakfast table, its not my nutrition diet, not my eyesight, that's fine there's nothing wrong with my eyes, it's the fuzzy blurry scary light headed over whelming feeling, inside my body, time after time. Shopping centre panic and over filled buses, doctors surgery waiting room, … Continue reading Blurry Vision aka anxious 5/10/19
We made love in this room We grew familiar You took a chance and did whatever We made love in this room And you made me think feel that the next parts would be familiar I took the risk and undressed my skin I let you look and touch me, feel I took a risk … Continue reading Goodbye tears
booted out the car door, not the first incident, where else was I to go, I had a plan to do, I had words to say, before your life would be taken out of mine again, I walked right across town, through crowds and crowds, and when I finally made it, I bottled it up, … Continue reading A rescue mission, from myself.
My heart was breaking, I almost collapsed from all the crying, My diet was fading, He made sure I didn't waste away. He always boasted about how he was kind, He was one of them guys who wouldn't leave you behind, and I tried to be there as much as I could when he needed my … Continue reading He makes a good f*cking hot chocolate,
There is a spot on your chin, and its been bugging me, I like to grab and squeeze, spots, oh god, im gross, and now there is one on your noes, please let me pick and pop it, there is a spot on the end of your chin.
Cold, the mornings are cold, take my child to school, drop her off, shoes still on, least that's a chore that I didn't have to worry about. Its cold, The hostel's cold, the streets are cold, taking the dog with me, at least he still has a lead, one less thing I didn't need … Continue reading Selling the big issue outside Sainsbury’s on Newland Avenue
Dear, I was socially distancing long before social distancing became interesting, I would wait all day until the last minute or hour in the day to get my grocery’s, Or wake up very early to be the first one in the shop, I was so cially distancing myself at work, school, play, I really hate … Continue reading So cial
I think the state of everything just makes us all want to scream, 'Give me a break!', we had the worst election turn out in the winter in the UK. Austerity growing increasingly worse, people struggling for basic needs and in the heart of all this we now have a virus pandemic. The many people … Continue reading Give me a break.
The weekend has been a drag, last night you was helping me prepare for my uni degree, you went through my timetable. It was really sweet. I told you a little more about the degree and you was laughing because it seemed like such a long time for you. You said that if there was … Continue reading Its Monday..
I wish when you woke up You would see My body and we would lay, peacefully, I wish when you woke up You would reach Hold your arms out across to me And we would be. I wish when you was out with your friends I wish it was me that was on your mind … Continue reading I wish it was me
Its 3 am and I have been calling you for some time to see where you are, I was wondering if you got caught up again at work, or maybe you was stuck in traffic on your way home. The baby has been awake most of the night and I think that I am losing … Continue reading Home
Dear Reader, It’s Thursday March 26th, 2020 and on Monday the UK issued ‘lock down’ for 3 weeks, which could be longer, no one really knows, because of a new strain of virus called Covid-19. This has been the most significant global emergency since the world war. Many people have been panic … Continue reading My letter in the new book ‘for you’
Hey guys I hope your ok my new book will be out this weekend its called 'for you' and is a collection of poems from the summer last year that I was too worried to share but I thought what the heck I will share it with you all and maybe it will work out … Continue reading new book ‘For You’
I find peace with life the life I'm living and let you go because happiness is loving and if it was meant to be in Heaven we will meet and if it was meant to be in heaven we will meet. ~ I find peace with forgiving, and I will give you my word, for … Continue reading in heaven we will be.
Dear, They whisper of socialism in the streets, Yes I repeat, The time is coming... The time is near, They whisper of good will, good cheer, You wouldn't believe the things we see and things we've seen. We didn't have to pack our kids off to the fields, the men didnt have to go off … Continue reading You wouldn’t believe
I think of you when you have noone, Think of you when you are on your own, And I think of what you maybe thinking, if you may have thought about me, at all. I think of you and if your alright, I worry for no apparent reason. I think of thinking of the things … Continue reading Blueberry pie.
I understand. I know what it's like feeling alone. I know what it's like when he comes home, I know what it's like when he doesn't want to pull his weight, I know what it's like when you can't cope. I know what it's like but there is hope, I know what it's like, I … Continue reading I understand.
you told me not to fall pregnant in my teens, you told me that i should make sure im clean, swearing for a girl is mean, you made sure that i didn't wear to much make up and to not be keen ... but you didn't say that the world is a c*nt daddy ! … Continue reading the world is a c*nt daddy… warning strong language
don't think I've been in a calm place for awhile,he said, 'shit runs out eventually'when I feel at ease it's satisfying,like im high on drugs or something.don't think I've been in a calm place,for a long time. he said 'shit runs out eventually'I guess, I thought,I could agree.Time to stop playing 'victim'the world is more … Continue reading Shit runs out eventually.
Pick me up in the pieces you left me in, collect my soul out of the wheelybin. Dust me off and let me in, its been awhile so lets begin. Strip Me Down and Fuck me in. Off goes the bra, the clothes, my hearts been racing since the Chinese food we … Continue reading #3 Pick Me Up
I needed to feel the pain, to feel again, so hold me like you love me in the lonely place you met me. its too late for me now. Sorry means nothing, sorry means nothing, too late for me now. I needed to feel shame, to understand blame, I needed the pain to … Continue reading #2 Sorry means nothing.
#1 Stranger to myself. Although temptation is drawing me in, I know its no good and I wont possibly win. I'm just a fool, just a stranger. and I shouldn't put myself in danger.
The first time wasn't supposed to be like this We was supposed to get married Grow up Have kids The first time wasn't supposed to hurt me
I remember, Saturday's they fucking sucked. You taught me the way. maybe it wasn't love. Woken by a text Every morning Hello gorgeous Made my day And now I wish I didn't dream it away Hello beautiful How are you? And now I look I don't know what to do...
I told you my deepest darkest secrets I told you because I only trust you I only wanted you * I told you the absolute bottom of my heart So low I thought I deserved a response But you didn't * I've got to face like everyday now knowing that you finally know But I'm … Continue reading what do I do?
The sun reminds me of the feelings of being around you I don't mind being clueless Voiceless You make my presence seem to last In happiness.
I cant sing, i wish i could sing, it would feel amazing, letting out the air, singing out the song, playing on the instruments, the guitar, the bass, the drum, I cant sing, I wish I could, I can write and rant and moan, but that just aint enough, find the strength to bring myself … Continue reading i cant sing
ive been through enough and im torn up i need some space and i need some time but people dont want me to heal or at least thats how i feel and no body cares if im hurt and i dont get asked by you if im actually ok and that hurts too would it … Continue reading games
Good morning everyone sorry I haven't been posting for awhile and some changes been going on. I miss you all and hope your all well... last month I had the opportunity to go on to BBC No Filter ON Radio Humberside and this weekend I was invited to talk on West Hull Radio 📻 I … Continue reading West Hull FM Radio
Just needed something, to let go, And words don't seem to help or let me know, The next place or the good place I should go, And I've called samartains 4 times on my phone, But they wasn't the place to... let go, Turned up at doctors on my way home, But they don't really … Continue reading Let go.
I loved you. And I figured out these days I will be taking the heart break, With me forever and down under. These tears I will be mixing up with 2 sugars inside my cup, I figured out these days there's not many people who you can trust, Or will learn to love and be … Continue reading I loved you.
You wind me up on purpose To spark a reaction Talk about girls Your random attractions Obsessing over tits and arse That's not an attractive idea That's not an attractive look And that's not a way to get me to fuck But you continue to act like a puppy on speed A man with crack … Continue reading Wind up
why cant falling in love be simple why does it take so long to find the one why cant falling in love feel happy why does it feel like I am doing something wrong...
Wait. Im sorry I let you down And invited you into my life surrounded by clowns I'm sorry I'm not a very good friend And I'm sorry that things have got to end but I swear I care I'm just sorry I wasn't there for you I'm sorry I have to walk away And I'm … Continue reading Sorry
Dont worry if you missed tonight’s episode of @bbcnofilter on @RadioHumberside you can hear it on iplayer https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/p081sblx Huge thanks to those who tuned in and listened 🙂 goodnight ! #poetry #spokenword #hullpoet
Dont worry if you missed tonight's episode of @bbcnofilter on @RadioHumberside you can hear it on iplayer https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/p081sblx Huge thanks to those who tuned in and listened 🙂 goodnight ! #poetry #spokenword #hullpoet
Nearly 2 years ago the family was illegally evicted from Hotham Road Hull, landlord had a live wire in the garden whilst the children was off during the summer holidays. During that time we had a roof that leaked all over the bedroom and a collapsing fence where dogs would chew through and run into … Continue reading Evicted
It's too late to save me now,But if I can prevent the nextThe nextRowThen my soul will some how make it out aliveIf that's allowedits too late for me nowBut it's not too late for you and you and her and himIf you can mend this part with this string I hand to you then … Continue reading Victim.
I thought I knew where I was going, But then I thought about you again today, I thought how you make my skin crawl, If I was in the same room as you, But then I thought about your voice, How it would guide me through the darkest hour, Like silk, As smooth as milk … Continue reading As smooth as milk across my lips
Each day Each day arrives Like a drum beat Falling. Each day counted, I'm a little bit further away from worry, I dont want to hurry, But I dont want to be closer, To a conclusion, If that would be ok? Each day.. Like an unknown bite of an apple. Which one is poisoned? ...
Your the sun the ocean floor, Your the light at the end of the tunnel, Your my future my past my struggle, Your the rain the hail the snow, Your the scorching blizzard Thunder lightening storms, Your the ground the plants surround, Your the one, the one I've found. Your my shine my cover, your … Continue reading Your the…
An innocent mind The purest form Difficult to adjust A world of his own The carpet tingles beneath your feet And the sheets havent been changed since last week curtains open sunlight drips A memory enters Something clicks An innocent mind A delicate sort Who am I to distort? kindest of people Most honest of … Continue reading He.
I may never hop on to an aeroplane, or see a Florida beach, and my hairs too coarse by boxed dyes, it wont take the bleach, i may never make it out this town of lost and stolen dreams. but i will fucking try and try and try until my voice it reaches. I … Continue reading in case you come to stand
I get that you had to get high, and i had no objection, but dude you did it all the time, and i let you, walk all over me, then when i told you its time to sort our shit, you, kind of got mad and didn't like it, i mean a kid should of … Continue reading i get it now
Dear, ...recent weeks have been overwhelming but powerful, exciting, enjoyable. I feel like I am on top of the world and I appreciate that this feeling can come and go but right now I feel very comfortable with things more than I have been for maybe 8 years. ugly times I know will come and … Continue reading opportunity, Feb 2020
thinking of writing up a book of me poems soon, what do you think? does anyone know of any comps at the moment for singular poems? Lil x
let me take you to a place where theres space and we feel safe, let me take you to a place where there will be no judgement, no print, no ink, no stories or hearsay, because after all why should we care what they 'might' say, let me take you to a place, where the … Continue reading take you
I can’t breathe Because Your fucking choking me Controlling me Provoking me Taking over I can’t breathe.
Hello friends around the world, thanks for reading or popping over or taking a look at my blog!, it shows in my stats that your dropped by and just wanted to wish you well, Lilyth
Dilated, It's a race against time, And you don't want to wait. You climb on top of me, And eyes dilate. You kiss me like it's supposed to be, And you act as though it's love. Then wake to start it all again, This bitter dangerous love. Like rope we split with hairy edges, Almost … Continue reading Dilated.
I don't want to start a romanceThat will end in tragic events, I've done that, I've been there. Is it worth it?No, it's not. But I can't help falling for your voice.
