Wedding I dreamt about our weddingGirls dressed as flower girlsAnd a page boy bearing rings. I dreamt about our weddingOn an autumn eveOr summers dayOr winter corridorI wouldn’t mind where, how or what,Our love would value more. But it seemsI never get that far. A dark cloud follows me.In every path I’m faced with.But still … Continue reading Wedding
Rain. It’s somethingI could write about over and overthe rain, it could never bring me misery. How a leaf curls openrain drops pearlDrip down to its ends. The rain bouncingOff surfaces,NaturallyCasually. The rain it couldneverbring me misery.
Hello, I hope you are keeping well! Hull has been keeping really busy we have a number of groups and pages keeping writing spirits going and sharing peoples work which I just think is wonderful, so many would have just given up with live events completely halted and meet ups unable to happen. It’s important … Continue reading Groups, events and pages keeping Hulls writing voice alive during unprecedented times
Keep on clawing at the skin, Keep on going back and picking, Picking. Crows don't care about the mud, They stand in the puddles, Feet surrounded by water, They're pretty neat and clever little creatures, Dance along to sorror songs, Life's strange like that, It would have been nice, I went back to the scene … Continue reading Proof
Its difficult to adjust to changes, changes never gave us time. and life never gave us patience, I know that you dont believe, but your broken soul will heal, amongst the ray of sun, along the cocktail of sunflower yellow, it will lift you out, and my … Continue reading Broken Butterfly
Wyke college Hull: The college wanted to discourage smokers Especially student ones So they made a garden especially for the smokers in summer as you could imagine People just gathered there more So, the college planted trees making the shape of the ‘smokers garden’ into lungs this was supposed to warn the smokers that if … Continue reading The smokers corner
Happy to share that my poem ‘Grandad’, has been accepted in a remembrance online journal for 11th November 😊🙌 I will share the link when it’s out Thanks for following me and sharing my work best wishes Lilyth x
For I am always weary of man That tells me I ‘look good’ I wonder their intentions That is not a reflection of you It is a condition of the way That I have been treated.
Stop being angry at me,
On the walk home After visiting You would message me To say you thought I looked beautiful And you did that every other day for a few weeks Then you stopped I thought it be something that would carry on Now I’m worried you just said it to get something you want Or maybe I … Continue reading Not beautiful.
Please don’t spread lies about me I don’t have much time
Barriers We build To prevent ourselves From being true.
If I tell you I love you one more time Will it hurt less?
Forever in my memory you will stay And I will mourn you like yesterday.
You could have remained my guide And I forever your fortune
Please come Back to me For I am Lost
If I show him I am hurting, He will Hurt me back.
I don’t want to live no more If I have to live a 1000 more lives of sadness and misery I don’t want to live no more If it shall be pain and discomfort mentally or physically I don’t want to travel through more days If all people do is hurt me this way I … Continue reading I don’t want to live
Why are you no longer here Why are you no longer around Why did you have to leave Please tell me where we can be found.
They said there was plenty Of time Warning There was enough substantial evidence But just not enough.
And on the way up He may say That you will hear many people’s reasonings as to what Constitutes as a ‘proper writer’ If it makes you feel He says Then that is good If it makes you wonder Then you are heading somewhere Your grammar should be proper Your image should be on point … Continue reading On the way
I birthed your baby Was that not enough That I gave you my love my life my trust And you turned your back as if it was lust And you turned your head as if it wasn’t enough I birthed your baby I gave it our name And you left me behind in the blood … Continue reading Birth stories on your insta reel vs mine was a horror.
Even after horrific trauma labours I still talk to you as if you are my friend.
I had a dream About us And oh how close we where An opposite to the reality of life when I wake up But if I say in the dream I wish to have remained I would be lying For I know dreams don’t last At least if I leave I can return to you
I wish you would just call me I wish we could just speak I miss our conversations Or you could text me, at least? I miss us being ‘normal’ Why won’t you speak to me?
It is only day 2 And I’m am absolutely exhausted Lack of sleep Lack of energy Lack of anything really. It’s only day 2 I don’t hear from you I don’t hear from many I chose to battle days alone For it better than people belittling me And making me feel irrational Some days I … Continue reading Right now.
Why is it that my body grows older But my mind is far behind Inside I feel young.
I still got you tingling and bubbling about in my blood.
Being mum : https://youtu.be/ypXRHsc5xSQ
Voluntary disposition of movements you find yourself into, places you recognise but inside you don’t feel alive, this is my pain and my story of what it feels like, to die. An open palm of hope given to someone close, ripped out of you, your eyes don’t get rest, cries and cries, this is what … Continue reading This is what it feels like, to die.
Goodnight, I love you, I do I do.
Goodnight, I love you. So much, I do. I do.
I wasn’t ready, I wasn’t able to confess my words and write them down before you got angry and walked around inside my mind , you’re so unkind, you’re so unkind you’re so unkind. But this is about you and this is your life too, And you had to do what you had to do, … Continue reading I wasn’t ready.
Shouting across the street “He’s waiting for another lock down because apparently he doesn’t mind not getting paid” She said, “They’ll start complaining once all this PPE fills up all the land fills.”
We sat in the garden Me and you You lit up a cigarette and sipped your coffee It was dark But it never feels dark in summer I started playing music And we flicked through And Foo Fighters came up We had a connection One that could last?
So, He’s waiting for the day I get taken away Off into a fairytale carriage for a marriage Waiting for the day I get knocked up again Just so he doesn’t have to feel like he’s caused any damage He’s waiting for that day because he knows it’ll happen And he lost out on that … Continue reading Waiting
You was having recent conversations About the mortgage repayments I was never there to help you guide you on this decision You would say it’s nothing to do with me if I asked But I know for a fact you would still want my input.
Stop telling me it was fate When you had control.
I cannot contemplate The significant suffering That brought you here I cannot comprehend How dare I try to compare For pebbles I hand to you You let them fall between your fingers For flowers I hand to you You let them wilt into your body heat For paper with letters I bring You peel them … Continue reading Cannot
If the type board letter keys on my phone was ink It would be red It would be my blood It be the soul and power deep rooted tangling twisting in every dental root canal Huddled around my toes and shooting pains up my thighs It be the pain in my stomach Puffy rings around … Continue reading It’s confessional.
She laughed at me Red rosy cheeks I knew that this was going to be strange I realised a great deal, a lot of the time, the way people behaved and I could tell their actions most of the time but I tried to ignore it because it upset me too much. You always asked … Continue reading It’s observational
If you’ve come here because you’ve got a gut feeling about a man you’re seeing... you’re right
I had a baby poem on YouTube Over a year ago a wrote my first pamphlet book of poetry I wanted to highlight postnatal depression and thank the support I received from The House Of Light in 2018.
Yo! https://youtu.be/_YRdMYQUSME Sorry to pester you but if you ever get a tiny bit of time please subscribe to my YouTube channel it would mean a great deal to me but I understand sometimes it gets annoying when an artist keeps uploading and sharing... I’m just at that point of my career where I have … Continue reading Yo! I’m on YouTube
And tonight, I relapse, So what you gonna do? Get the rule book out, And scream at me rule by rule? Tonight I relapse, Back into the monster I got rid, I've been battling insomnia , Whilst babys drool falls, on, to, the bib. I am screaming out for comfort, As I stare around the … Continue reading Relapse
When you left So carelessly You came into my life You brought me life Then left me with the thoughts and fear of death Deliberately reminding me That you may go first For it be me standing by your hearse But you forget I have control over my life Could change the outcome for you … Continue reading Death
You did not need to wait for my approval You already had it I know you want it from everyone else.
Everyone else feels the same So I should probably Stop feeling like I do.
The only touch I want to feel Is the bedding As you are tucking me in For sleep.
It’s not that I don’t want to experience a life with you It’s just a lot of sh I’ve been through And I figured you have too. But it’s too early to remember Scars kill, I know, I know, It’s going to hurt, And be ugly If you’ve seen the things that I have seen. … Continue reading A lot
Taking chances and letting go But taking steps and being slow Because you are the one who’s in control ... July 2020
Your words won’t make me weak Because I know my truth And I was lucky.
& so your cold long arms wrap around my shattered body once more, your fairytale kisses sweep me off these miserable streets. For I have missed your voice, and presence immensely. Gifted heart of gold, woolly warmth, hold me tight so, I sleep comfortably. Then once I am sleeping join me. Please just hold me … Continue reading Heavens
My heart still races around, Like crazy, At the thought of your name. It’s having a marathon, Around my body, jumping from my tiny toe to the top of my brain. It’s beating faster and faster, especially the further I think about you. Analyse you. Underpin you. My eyes well up, & my hearts ran … Continue reading Marathon.
I will make you proud.
13th April 2020 You give me a reason to wake, you give me a reason to forget all mistakes... you give me the chance to be myself. a positive influence somewhere in the distance, my heart it aches, it beats all night, and then gets me out of bed again... I haven't been like that … Continue reading You give me a reason
I shared at least a few moments with you that where lovely and magical And the one that stays fondest in my mind And the one that I will now leave behind as I write Is the one where we stood together In the garden in sunny weather The sun beat down on to your … Continue reading Sunbeam kisses
He said “you’re acting as though we was married” ... “Isn’t that what you wanted?”