I thought I knew where I was going, But then I thought about you again today, I thought how you make my skin crawl, If I was in the same room as you, But then I thought about your voice, How it would guide me through the darkest hour, Like silk, As smooth as milk … Continue reading As smooth as milk across my lips
Each day Each day arrives Like a drum beat Falling. Each day counted, I'm a little bit further away from worry, I dont want to hurry, But I dont want to be closer, To a conclusion, If that would be ok? Each day.. Like an unknown bite of an apple. Which one is poisoned? ...
Your the sun the ocean floor, Your the light at the end of the tunnel, Your my future my past my struggle, Your the rain the hail the snow, Your the scorching blizzard Thunder lightening storms, Your the ground the plants surround, Your the one, the one I've found. Your my shine my cover, your … Continue reading Your the…
An innocent mind The purest form Difficult to adjust A world of his own The carpet tingles beneath your feet And the sheets havent been changed since last week curtains open sunlight drips A memory enters Something clicks An innocent mind A delicate sort Who am I to distort? kindest of people Most honest of … Continue reading He.
I may never hop on to an aeroplane, or see a Florida beach, and my hairs too coarse by boxed dyes, it wont take the bleach, i may never make it out this town of lost and stolen dreams. but i will fucking try and try and try until my voice it reaches. I … Continue reading in case you come to stand
I get that you had to get high, and i had no objection, but dude you did it all the time, and i let you, walk all over me, then when i told you its time to sort our shit, you, kind of got mad and didn't like it, i mean a kid should of … Continue reading i get it now
Dear, ...recent weeks have been overwhelming but powerful, exciting, enjoyable. I feel like I am on top of the world and I appreciate that this feeling can come and go but right now I feel very comfortable with things more than I have been for maybe 8 years. ugly times I know will come and … Continue reading opportunity, Feb 2020
thinking of writing up a book of me poems soon, what do you think? does anyone know of any comps at the moment for singular poems? Lil x
let me take you to a place where theres space and we feel safe, let me take you to a place where there will be no judgement, no print, no ink, no stories or hearsay, because after all why should we care what they 'might' say, let me take you to a place, where the … Continue reading take you
sky umbrella with layers blue, purple, pink, and orange too, the death of summer drift and sink. the sky above me, October, sad. the sky before me, open and drawn. clouds all hidden a canvas plain, sad eyes encounter towards November fall, sad eyes they hide in December rain, October comes and so does pain. … Continue reading Sad eyes in October sky
things will never be the same, when someone dies that's it, there is no more conversation with them, no more time with them, only places that you remember going, drinks you remember them drinking, phrases you remember them saying, their face stays with you for awhile but after a few years you forget and their … Continue reading …London
I can’t remember, Why am here, I’m so lost. I can’t remember your face, Can’t remember the sense of your body, I’m lost. I’ve been walking around this room, for so long, Figuring out what’s been going on, I turn on the light and your still gone. Darkness, gives me some comfort. I can’t remember … Continue reading I.O.U
I was hoping it was you. I have missed you for so long. I have searched every google, yahoo, msn, search engine with your name and every Facebook wall, and now I am faced with a number, I thought, I deleted. It took me so long to find you. I have missed you. I have … Continue reading Longed
You, Tricked me of a promise land, And foolish I, I took your hand, They laugh and cradle over me, As I stay inside for week, Embarrassed ashamed and frozen. People they ask me what I'm doing, If I have moved on, Because now your gone, And that's something I am supposed to be doing, … Continue reading Promise land.
I grew up with dad, then with mum, then with dad, and now with mum, then back with dad, but at mums house she had an ashtray full of little bits of trash and cigarette ash, a hamster that bit through the metal parts of the cage and ran away, at mums house it was … Continue reading I lived with mum then dad.
a howl and a growl as the hours go by, and the trees they all sway in the whisper of the night, the shadows they curve as they swerve when the wind passes through, enchanting, gasping, at the size of the wolf moon. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- carry bag, leaves, they glide along water, and the droplets they … Continue reading wolf moon.
I've been getting this horrible heart sensations, and terrible palpitations, i thought my anxiety, would never get the best of me, but its only been a week. I didn't think it would be heart break. ----------------------------------------------------- I've been getting these terrible dreams, they come and go as they please, and in the day, bad negative … Continue reading heart
hey, have you forgiven me yet? give me a chance to explain at the next event, its hard to go i still feel your ghost, so alone, I don't know whats close. I've spent so many nights alone, cant you just take me home? the winters made things difficult, and summer seems so far away. … Continue reading forgive me.
So, so much is happening, I dont know if I'm excited about sharing this with anyone. I've got a writing fever but have to focus on exams, focusing so much so that I've deactivated social media for now apart from Twitter. It's been a crazy week already, the kids are back at school and I … Continue reading 7th Jan Something’s changed. Hull we need action
Um. I feel bit rubbish if I'm honest. I cant believe we are already on the 2nd of January and I have my first exam on the 7th. I want to pass it but I keep telling myself I wont, the children where off unwell so long during December so I missed lots of work … Continue reading Good morning
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fuck all. in fact in bed i decided to crawl, i had the worst migraine , the kids had been arguing all day. So tell me about your day, rub your celebrating in my face. Hell yeah its a new day, goodbye to a whole year? for an anxious person like myself, that's too … Continue reading the things i did on new years eve
For all the answers I will never hear, I will keep writing letters you'll never see, and for all the texts you will never read, phone calls, you never call, rain drops, that never fall, I will keep writing and writing, until I write myself happy.
Goodnight, Goodnight, Goodnight, hope you sleep well tonight. Don’t be afraid, As your laid, Close your eyes and try to sleep, Tomorrow will be a new day. It’s time your rest your body and lay, Relax your brain. And dream away. Goodnight my sweet love, goodnight my dear.
You see, You and me we are the same, We don't change, Every bitter bone in our bodies breaks, when we don't get what we want, and your heart shrinks the slightest bit more the further you go, You can kid yourself all you like, all you wish, but we don't build as many bridges … Continue reading just as bad
I know that I’m a fuck up Dad... But at least I’m man enough to admit it, And I know that I’m a little sad, But at least I’m strong enough to deal with it. Oh I know I’m a fuck up dad, You never paid for my prom dress, And I aint even mad... … Continue reading Prom
It near enough kills me, Knowing I'm not enough, and you hurt me so bad, that I hurt you back. I have stooped so low, I recognise that. and im sorry... but sorrys not even significant enough anymore, I will forever feel that I didn't do enough, but its ok, we all make mistakes, but … Continue reading spinning
There is probably no point in texting or calling, no point in knocking, or just stopping by, no point in posting, searching or looking, thinking or hoping, i'm leaving i'm leaving, this is goodbye.
That could of been us, That could of been you, That could of been me, You see, It could have been our family, It could have been. I remember when you first pointed it out to me, That person having a baby so happily, A couple formed that no one ever could have seen. And … Continue reading us
My hearts suffocating. This isn’t the end. It’s destroying my soul. This isn’t the end . Was this always your goal? This isn’t the end. My heart a million pieces, tiny, shattered, sharp deathly edges, Blood pours out from the screams of my shadow, At last I think I’m starting to get shallow, Where my … Continue reading Key
emergency surgery : ~ my hero.. is a man in blue uniform, a name I won't recall, what I have left from being under the knife, scars are a reminder of my hero's work, he gave me chance to live my life, for what he did im really glad, I wish I could thank him … Continue reading my hero is a man in blue uniform
My teeth grind And the chip on my tooth cracks Like the brittleness in my finger nails that snap And I feel like I never meant anything to happen like that But it’s to late to discuss the facts My tongue rough and my eyes sore I hope you got what you waited for Anxiety … Continue reading teeth
I hold up this needle I push the thin thread through the thin thread does not go through I drop the needle I pick up the needle I push the thin thread towards the tiny sharp needle the thin thread refuses to go through the tiny hole it wont go in, it fights, it bends, … Continue reading Needle
Praying for your reach to reach me, But I guess the changes and the same damn things that keep happening don’t teach me, And I’m lying and crying for what ? When you clearly have everything you got, You don’t need me right now, And I don’t know what to do and how to say … Continue reading I just want you to leave
It doesn’t matter now, In fact it doesn’t even hurt, Not one bit, It doesn’t affect my daily movements or thoughts, It doesn’t stop me eating, It doesn’t stop me being sociable, Or from showering, I mean, I’m not wearing the same clothes since I last saw you, And the smell of you isn’t still … Continue reading it matters…
Sunflower in a wine bottle There was a sunflower in the wine bottle, On top of the table my grandfather helped me get home Before my son was born. Left in the garden over night and in the day, Wilting by the second Like our love. Sunflower in the wine bottle Placed in the middle, … Continue reading Sunflower in the wine bottle
I heard you say you needed me and you'd buy your friend drinks for eternity and you called my name as if it where the perfect thing that you prayed for so what did i get so wrong? you destroyed me thank you.
oh shit, imagine that. I took them keys, to this bigger house, these bigger plans, that you had. oh shit, imagine that. you'd have your way, wouldn't you. we would have all these luxuries, cause oh shit, you was telling me, imagine that, and we spend years doing this shit, ripping each other apart, and … Continue reading oh shit.
You wanted me to be there for you. but you used me as a dump, to put your shit inside. and instead of asking why I cried, you played the 'what about me' card, what about me? when we drank litres of alcohol, destroyed our friendship because you wanted some, you went around using your … Continue reading your brain is programmed ‘what about me’
so i see you sent your messenger and you told her but i know you never told her the truth 'stop its not fair' wait i don't care it wasn't fair what you did the shit you spilt this is on you and if you cant tell her the truth then, its going to be … Continue reading stop its not fair
Pull down this zip On the outside of my body I want to unwind to somebody Jazz music plays blasts out the saxophone So tired of crying and dancing alone I want those street lights amber casting down on me rain puddles kicked every drop landing Pull down this zip unwind my body i'm tired … Continue reading zip
I get it now inside those sad eyes you had no strength to say that you didn't see us leaving the way we came and you came here for one last time you liked the feeling didn't you one last Fuck for the road the one your taking alone you wanted one more before you … Continue reading One last
Thank you everyone who has stuck around to be with me on my writing journey I hope to see more of you in the new year. Thanks for your love and support! Wishing you a merry Christmas! for your chance to win a free signed poetry book please comment on this post … Continue reading Tell me a highlight of your year and win a free signed poetry book!
For the best part things seemed to be bubbling over for me mentally. In reflection Summer greated us with tremendous thunder storms. I remember you texting me one evening when you went round the corner to play warhammer games with a friend. The lightening was so bright and the thunder was a beautiful drumming sound … Continue reading I was anxious-Part 23- theres always rain after a storm.
Do you remember the fall? I've seen it all, I've seen you, Putting my makeup on and you stand around me. Tell me you think I'm pretty without it and theres no need. Glancing up at the bathroom mirror. And I see you stand there. You remember the fall? It was harder than the autumn. … Continue reading Fall
Let me give you, a perfect reminder of why your worth every second and every moment. See, your scars are stars around here, your harms are open arms around here. We will listen. You deserve every drop of water, every breath of air. You deserve love and affection and care. You deserved to feel loved … Continue reading Permanent
Nearly 2 years ago the family was illegally evicted from Hotham Road Hull, landlord had a live wire in the garden whilst the children was off during the summer holidays. During that time we had a roof that leaked all over the bedroom and a collapsing fence where dogs would chew through and run into … Continue reading Evicted
It's too late to save me now,But if I can prevent the nextThe nextRowThen my soul will some how make it out aliveIf that's allowedits too late for me nowBut it's not too late for you and you and her and himIf you can mend this part with this string I hand to you then … Continue reading Victim.
Hey guys I will let you know as soon as when and where the radio piece will be! Can't wait to share it with you a little bit about me and poetry 🙂
Where do all the teddies go?The ones who don't get taken home?When valentines day is done, the teddy's that noone wants,The flowers that noones bought,Where do all the teddies go?Now valentines day is over, Will they be sitting on the streets,Shivering for food to eat, Homeless bear.Or will she be desperate for love and sell … Continue reading Valentines over
Do you not think that we could start again ?SometimeGo back to the parts where you winded up at mineOr does the thought of me still chill you ? Its been an emotional month one of whichI'm not proud to admit ... Do you think we could start again ? With the hi helloI am a … Continue reading This is out of my control, again.
I didnt fit into your 'realm', Your fantasy world, And I didnt even want to use or try a bong, Maybe I should have tried the spliff, Had a drink, Thinking now maybe we would have got along, Danced our dance, sang our song, But I didnt.
Your carrying , A little piece of me. Your carrying my soul, my life, my dignity, Your taking every last breath from me, S o u l m a t e .
I've always wondered what its live to come out at the other side alive, I've been travelling a long time, Stuck in limbo, I just know that some day, It will be amazing! And that keeps me going...