wolf moon.

a howl and a growl as the hours go by, and the trees they all sway in the whisper of the night, the shadows they curve as they swerve when the wind passes through, enchanting, gasping, at the size of the wolf moon. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- carry bag,  leaves, they glide along water, and the droplets they … Continue reading wolf moon.

heart

I've been getting this horrible heart sensations, and terrible palpitations, i thought my anxiety, would never get the best of me, but its only been a week. I didn't think it would be heart break. ----------------------------------------------------- I've been getting these terrible dreams, they come and go as they please, and in the day, bad negative … Continue reading heart

Night

Goodnight, Goodnight, Goodnight, hope you sleep well tonight. Don’t be afraid, As your laid, Close your eyes and try to sleep, Tomorrow will be a new day. It’s time your rest your body and lay, Relax your brain. And dream away. Goodnight my sweet love, goodnight my dear.

No point

There is probably no point in texting or calling, no point in knocking, or just stopping by, no point in posting, searching or looking, thinking or hoping, i'm leaving i'm leaving,               this is goodbye.

us

That could of been us, That could of been you, That could of been me, You see, It could have been our family, It could have been. I remember when you first pointed it out to me, That person having a baby so happily, A couple formed that no one ever could have seen. And … Continue reading us

Key

My hearts suffocating. This isn’t the end. It’s destroying my soul. This isn’t the end . Was this always your goal? This isn’t the end. My heart a million pieces, tiny, shattered, sharp deathly edges, Blood pours out from the screams of my shadow, At last I think I’m starting to get shallow, Where my … Continue reading Key

teeth

My teeth grind And the chip on my tooth cracks Like the brittleness in my finger nails that snap And I feel like I never meant anything to happen like that But it’s to late to discuss the facts My tongue rough and my eyes sore I hope you got what you waited for Anxiety … Continue reading teeth

oh shit.

oh shit, imagine that. I took them keys, to this bigger house, these bigger plans, that you had. oh shit, imagine that. you'd have your way, wouldn't you. we would have all these luxuries, cause oh shit, you was telling me, imagine that, and we spend years doing this shit, ripping each other apart, and … Continue reading oh shit.

zip

Pull down this zip On the outside of my body I want to unwind to somebody Jazz music plays blasts out the saxophone So tired of crying and dancing alone I want those street lights amber casting down on me rain puddles kicked every drop landing Pull down this zip unwind my body i'm tired … Continue reading zip

I was anxious-Part 23- theres always rain after a storm.

For the best part things seemed to be bubbling over for me mentally. In reflection Summer greated us with tremendous thunder storms. I remember you texting me one evening when you went round the corner to play warhammer games with a friend. The lightening was so bright and the thunder was a beautiful drumming sound … Continue reading I was anxious-Part 23- theres always rain after a storm.

Fall

Do you remember the fall? I've seen it all, I've seen you, Putting my makeup on and you stand around me. Tell me you think I'm pretty without it and theres no need. Glancing up at the bathroom mirror. And I see you stand there. You remember the fall? It was harder than the autumn. … Continue reading Fall

Permanent

Let me give you, a perfect reminder of why your worth every second and every moment. See, your scars are stars around here, your harms are open arms around here. We will listen. You deserve every drop of water, every breath of air. You deserve love and affection and care. You deserved to feel loved … Continue reading Permanent

Shower song

OK so I thought of this yesterday morning whilst having a shower. I was reading the bottles and I wanted to play with the words that manufactures use to sell their products. This is just a silly poem. Shower song Like shampoo I will leave you succulent and full of sense Fresh and revived Free … Continue reading Shower song

Lost

Jan/16 I'd have done everything and anything, Just to be by your side, I'd of made those scrambled eggs, Toast all fried, I can't believe the amount I've lost And I can't believe the amount I've cried, I feel so restless, I barely sleep, And I keep rubbing my eyes, The realisation that you really … Continue reading Lost

Fighting

Don't stop writing, Let words give you courage to keep on, Fighting. Let flames go on their own, Without you smouldering them.... Let the damage burn, Don't touch. Let them cool whilst you recover them, Don't stop writing, For it is your freedom to feel whatever you wish, Without the judgement of harsh characters, In … Continue reading Fighting

Vanish

Your body, real, Solid. Your shadow seen, Grey, Dark around the sketching. Your body, real, A solid, Oxygen, atoms. Your body real, Legs, move, walk, Feet, drop, stomp, I lift your arms, Up Then Down They don't flop, because you look at me strangely and tense them. Your body real, Blood, A liquid, Bones a … Continue reading Vanish

Hurt

There's no time, Left to Hurt, Tell me it's what you want, That's the perfect part, Falling apart. There's no time, Left to Hurt, If he wants what he wants he can go get it, He doesn't need to, Because he's already got it. Fuck me, I want to make love, Fuck me, I want … Continue reading Hurt

Relapse

And tonight, I relapse, So what you gonna do? Get the rule book out, And scream at me rule by rule? Tonight I relapse, Back into the monster I got rid, I've been battling insomnia , Whilst babys drool falls on to the bib. I am screaming out for comfort, As I stare around the … Continue reading Relapse

shy

I'm shy but not really, smile, but I'm secrectly. . .crying, I'm laughing, but silent, but I'm chatting, I'm shy, but not really... I'm cold, and im needy, The Attention You Give Me Smokes Like Fire, Beneath Me, Your A Charm, And Its Creepy, So I Remain Shy, Till You See Me.