Yesterday I had a day, where I felt I needed to say ‘ok’
You should never feel forced this way.
Didn’t consent to feel against
The rough sheets and you feet against
The headboard and the mattress protector
I just wanted to be your adventure?
What does it even mean
That I’m ok with you shoving your body into my emotions
I laid them down flat for you and I told you my intentions
All I wanted was to love and receive the attention
I didn’t want to create any prevention
You arms raised above my shoulder blades
Knees bent back where’s my razor blade ?
Tounge so sharp hurt to feel it again
Another man who changed up the game
An innocent mind who can’t accept the blame
To consent, I consented, to feel the pain? the same way over and over,
Could I approach you today?
Lips held shut I can’t speak again
Tug on my hair you said it’s ok
Touch in my underwear you said don’t be afraid
I love you like that but it’s not the same
I could be with someone else, you say
And I shouldn’t be worried
Because I consented.
But I never consented to be hurt.
I never intended to be a flirt
Over conscious of what to wear
Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous
Drink some more
I missed you so much but not like this
You said your never satisfied with just a kiss
And when we met we was just kids
Thank god back then I didn’t give in
I just want to be the same
Forget it happend and move on again
Remove the memory from my brain
But I consented.