I didn’t think I was saying goodbye,
when I was in that moment,
I didn’t think you went home to cry.
while I was still in that moment.
I drank so much. I don’t know why.
I didn’t spew up my guts.
and I never took the hint when my body had enough.
I just thought another drink would make me closer to you.
I know now it did the opposite.
I thought, you’d only like me when im drunk.
and if social media wasn’t around,
I know we wouldn’t talk,
Never again. I tell myself.
My love is on the highest shelf.
My purse locked away.
every penny spent,
and every penny invested,
put away into a chest,
along with where my heart is.