I just wanted you to be in as deep,
as deep as I have been,
I just wanted you to feel what I do,
I don’t think that will ever happen,
I have to face I’m not enough,
and its tough,
it’s killing me.
I take a few large breaths a day,
In hope that the feeling will go away,
I cut back the smoking and the alcohol,
but there’s still something I’m doing wrong,
I like to think you let me go because you loved me,
But I think that’s odd,
and disturbs me slightly,
I try to make the situation seem innocent,
but I know this is what you wanted in your ignorance,
In law they say its not a fair trial without both sides,
I tried to hear yours,
but somewhere you hide.
On the Wednesday in grocery shop,
The orange reminded me of that sweet moment,
Where you offered me a slice or two,
Then we kissed for ages.
Unless I must of dreamt it.
I didn’t think it was this compilated,
I was never in as deep to start with,
I could have easily back then heard your voice,
then forget it,
and now I’m in this spinning circle where I regret it.
I’m in so deep it cuts me hard,
Deleted the messages, the images,
Just tell me would this feeling be worth to keep?
thinking will you ever be in as deep?