So here it is,
my blurry vision,
fresh of the breakfast table,
its not my nutrition
not my eyesight, that’s fine
there’s nothing wrong with my eyes,
it’s the fuzzy blurry scary
over whelming feeling,
inside my body,
time after time.
Shopping centre panic and over filled buses, doctors surgery waiting room, and anticipating your health months before being seen,
am I wearing enough or too much?
is my hair ok of not good enough?
did I sound just right? or too abrupt?
its booking a ticket and canceling because your too frightend to travel after a certain time,
because you find it harder to trust after all the mistrust you have already felt,
its feeling like everything is enormous,
that every effort made is not enough.
the blurriness that follows you fresh off the breakfast table through until dinner does it calm.