I missed your warmth around me
the skin on skin contact
that connection that makes you feel complete
I missed it when our eyes would meet
I missed your careless observations of the world
when you said you didn’t want any other girl
your lingering feeling
like your soul within me
I miss us being as one
I missed this, I missed.
I missed the bus to work and I forgot about feeding the cat,
The fucking electric bill I missed out on that,
I miss the calm, the sail for the wind,
now I’m just a boat that’s falling downstream,
I miss the simplicity,
wanting to stay in love for eternity,
The fact that nothing stays true,
nothing stays real,
I missed being able to stay in contact with you.
I missed the deadline,
now my boss is whining all the time,
I missed the line and didn’t get a chance to eat at lunchtime,
I missed merging my vision of reality,
because I lost touch with all that was in front of me,
children, I missed out on caring,
and every parent-teacher invite too busy to return,
stuck in a work meeting,
I missed this, I miss.
I missed being able to enjoy life,
the little things like when the neighbour gives a fuck and takes out your wheely bin,
compassion, I miss the smiles when you’re jam-packed in Heron,
all the friends that have walked out on me and left me drunken in the street,
being a child,
what does that even mean?
constantly worrying where my parents might be?
teaching me about domestics, hectic, I won’t forget it.
Your warmth around me, the skin on skin contact,
when you’ve had a shit day and you’re sick of peoples comebacks,
general connections with people that make you feel complete.
I missed it when our eyes would meet.
Compassion, nobody gives a shit.