Sunken eyes pray for forgiveness
For forgiveness of things I have no memory
Each mile stone birthday
Just a little bit closer
For you to abandon me
And no longer be my father .
And adulthood I brave alone
A memory of you is just a ghost
The nights I stayed awake still feel like home
And angry words shout
“You had a choice”
Empty aches yearn for approval
From my school friends college and those to come
But doors slam shut
And my identity turns into a larger mission for me
And as a woman I have to remember how long my period is every time I see a GP
Hormones take over my life
And that is my new reality
You never told me about my rights
Empty ache yearns for approval
Approval of everything I touch and see
And every milestone birthday
Just a little bit closer
For you to soon abandon me.
