Empty ache yearns for approval

Sunken eyes pray for forgiveness

For forgiveness of things I have no memory

Each mile stone birthday

Just a little bit closer

For you to abandon me

And no longer be my father .

And adulthood I brave alone

A memory of you is just a ghost

The nights I stayed awake still feel like home

And angry words shout

“You had a choice”

Empty aches yearn for approval

From my school friends college and those to come

But doors slam shut

And my identity turns into a larger mission for me

And as a woman I have to remember how long my period is every time I see a GP

Hormones take over my life

And that is my new reality

You never told me about my rights

Empty ache yearns for approval

Approval of everything I touch and see

And every milestone birthday

Just a little bit closer

For you to soon abandon me.

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