And tonight,
I relapse,
So what you gonna do?
Get the rule book out,
And scream at me rule by rule?
Tonight I relapse,
Back into the monster I got rid,
I’ve been battling insomnia ,
Whilst babys drool falls, on, to,
the bib.
I am screaming out for comfort,
As I stare around the house, ripping my hair out of the mess,
Juggling and struggling,
Black is my night dress.
Tonight I relapse,
Tonight I cry, tonight I let it out, and wont give you a reply,
Tonight I die to be reborn again in the morning,
Tonight I visit hell.
Tonight I struggle back the pills and climb on to the bed,
Tonight I give up just to feel something and maybe get a thrill,
Tonight I let myself go and I relapse to the music,
I relapse, and I let the negative voice eat me alive just to be alive,
Tonight I let you hurt me tonight, I relapse,
Tonight I collapse into your arms and give up this fight I’ve been fighting.
17th January 2020
