So here it is, my blurry vision, fresh of the breakfast table, its not my nutrition diet, not my eyesight, that's fine there's nothing wrong with my eyes, it's the fuzzy blurry scary light headed over whelming feeling, inside my body, time after time. Shopping centre panic and over filled buses, doctors surgery waiting room, … Continue reading Blurry Vision aka anxious 5/10/19
I love a car boot, The smell of a car boot, All boots of a car smell differently, A new car smells like a new adventure, you want to keep it clean for a little while, no muddy shoes or dirty pram wheels, please. An old car smells like a farm, oily, like a winter … Continue reading Car boot.
And tonight, I relapse, So what you gonna do? Get the rule book out, And scream at me rule by rule? Tonight I relapse, Back into the monster I got rid, I've been battling insomnia , Whilst babys drool falls on to the bib. I am screaming out for comfort, As I stare around the … Continue reading Relapse
I've been experiencing some real life situations, Coming to harsh realisations, No answers given by people, And driven by this feeling that's given, Constant absence and low mood, In a world of my own. You can say my name but it doesnt belong, I have no idea what's been going on, And at last I … Continue reading Low mood.
Remember memories are in the past. The past cannot hurt you. Sharing for enjoyment. Sharing to self soothe. Sharing to entertain. Remember it's part of getting rid of brain junk. Remember it's just a story. Remember you are still you at the end of this journey. Not everyone will agree or like. You dont owe … Continue reading Remember
It's better to be real, Than fake, Better to believe and be who you are, Than hide in skin that is not yours. It's better to be real, Than fake, And don't try and impress the people, who dont bare your best interest. Be you, Not fake, And dont feel bad for any mistake, You … Continue reading Fake
Um. I feel bit rubbish if I'm honest. I cant believe we are already on the 2nd of January and I have my first exam on the 7th. I want to pass it but I keep telling myself I wont, the children where off unwell so long during December so I missed lots of work … Continue reading Good morning
For all the answers I will never hear, I will keep writing letters you'll never see, and for all the texts you will never read, phone calls, you never call, rain drops, that never fall, I will keep writing and writing, until I write myself happy.
emergency surgery : ~ my hero.. is a man in blue uniform, a name I won't recall, what I have left from being under the knife, scars are a reminder of my hero's work, he gave me chance to live my life, for what he did im really glad, I wish I could thank him … Continue reading my hero is a man in blue uniform
I hold up this needle I push the thin thread through the thin thread does not go through I drop the needle I pick up the needle I push the thin thread towards the tiny sharp needle the thin thread refuses to go through the tiny hole it wont go in, it fights, it bends, … Continue reading Needle
Oh to be treat like a 1st class citizen, Climb on a jet scheduled half price citizen, No strict time left or kept a half past citizen, Money pays the debt for a 1st class citizen, Oh to be treat, like a 1st class citizen. Channel coded dress and a designer backpack citizen, Theres no … Continue reading 1st class
Do you remember the fall? I've seen it all, I've seen you, Putting my makeup on and you stand around me. Tell me you think I'm pretty without it and theres no need. Glancing up at the bathroom mirror. And I see you stand there. You remember the fall? It was harder than the autumn. … Continue reading Fall