You abused me till it became amusing, time-consuming, hopelessly bruised, and that's when it hit me. You left me I had no control just some post stick notes on the bedroom wall, and that's when it hit me. You consumed me till I could no longer see, forgetting how to swim, you all … Continue reading that’s when it hit me
A long time, A long time, A long time, That took a long time, And it's put me off, Doing that again, Couldn't even remain friends, So much hurt, It's been a long time. I feel the climbing I've been doing, My muscles straining, I know I'm almost at the goal, No turning back now, … Continue reading A long time.
I can’t remember, Why am here, I’m so lost. I can’t remember your face, Can’t remember the sense of your body, I’m lost. I’ve been walking around this room, for so long, Figuring out what’s been going on, I turn on the light and your still gone. Darkness, gives me some comfort. I can’t remember … Continue reading I.O.U
For the best part things seemed to be bubbling over for me mentally. In reflection Summer greated us with tremendous thunder storms. I remember you texting me one evening when you went round the corner to play warhammer games with a friend. The lightening was so bright and the thunder was a beautiful drumming sound … Continue reading I was anxious-Part 23- theres always rain after a storm.
Don't stop writing, Let words give you courage to keep on, Fighting. Let flames go on their own, Without you smouldering them.... Let the damage burn, Don't touch. Let them cool whilst you recover them, Don't stop writing, For it is your freedom to feel whatever you wish, Without the judgement of harsh characters, In … Continue reading Fighting
I was getting really anxious, we had been talking for a few weeks. We sat together in the living room, I was nervous. I knew it was coming but I couldn't get my head around it. I could smell you, feel you, you was a real person. We flicked through the TV nothing really worth … Continue reading I was anxious- Part 14-Just a kiss
hello its me another benefits mum another where the fucks my child maintenance? skint at the end of the week if i rent a house they need 6 month bank statements in case i'm dodgy nothing is private hello its me another benefits mum I've had my housing delayed rent nearly late I made it … Continue reading benefits mum
August 2005 dear, I went to the park on my own today, hoody, joggers green NIKE trainers. I didn't intend to go out and meet anyone, I just wanted to get out as its the summer holidays and they have been so boring this year. I normally just sit with my headphones in from my … Continue reading Letter 8 Rizlas
I miss it, But I'm so damn grateful that I'm so far away from that place, I hate that I think of it, But I know where I am, I'm in such a safer environment, It's slightly distressing in the back of my memories, The house was beautiful, I imaged dancing holding wedding drapes, Scrubbing … Continue reading One last thought before bed