Where where you? Whilst I cried into my pillows like a hungry newborn, Held my stomach as it bled, received the awful news, What held you back? Don’t tell me traffic or I will laugh, Where where you? Whilst I chopped and lifted heavy items to the road side , Lifted and carted collected memories … Continue reading Whilst I’ve been in Hell.
Here’s an idea Take me out for a meal No thanks to Netflix and chill aka try and fuck Get your wallet out Go to cinema A walk A meal Do something, more than sitting back and waiting for texts and Snapchat’s, learn to date, Move? What on Earth will motivate you? Is this the … Continue reading Learn to date
If I’m going to be alone I feel I no longer care anymore If Love is not coming Then I’ve managed this long It will come or it will not It’s not in my control. If I’m going to be alone Then fine I’ve managed to survive.
What shall I forgive you for? The rocking back and forth? The torture I was your daughter So tell me what shall I forgive you for? You set fire to my soul Then tied me down with rocks Into the river So I could no longer float Tell me father, is that my freedom? Or … Continue reading No
I feel like I’ve had a cannonball Shot through me I have a huge hole That everyone can see I feel limbless Lifeless Floppy Intensely tired Groggy I’m angry at you Then I’m angry at myself Then I’m angry at everybody else. I try so hard to forgive you Because I want to Because I … Continue reading Cannonball
It doesn’t matter How many times I take them to the park To calm them down When I return You still haven’t moved a muscle You was testing my abilities even then To be a single mum.
You are not hurting , So you don’t see why, I behave in these manners. It’s the colour of your car On every street Drive Car park . It’s the breed of your dog On every park Field Walk way. The colour of your hair On every man stood in front Walking behind Waiting at … Continue reading Little things
Anything I say Makes the situation worse It’s like I’m constantly reminded Of my past like it’s a curse And you don’t even answer Or care how much this hurts I really do hope that I’m this is a satisfied choice And I’m so sorry that you don’t see me For who I am I … Continue reading worse
I miss that I can’t call you Like I used to And talk. I miss that you don’t even Call Anymore. I hate that All we have become is dull There are no Conversations Just numb. I miss that you no longer see me As special or unique I’m hurting because I can’t show you … Continue reading I miss that
You’re keeping me away For reasons I’m not sure Maybe your not the same Maybe you’re not sure. But you know I have emotions To which you will not let me display And this cruel behaviour Is antagonising and paralysing me What do you want giving? For I give all the time You keep me … Continue reading Unable to act
I confess too much Yes I care to much Yes I thought they would care Of course I regret opening my heart wide open Yes I regret believing in them once again Of course.
Do you really think That we can part Go separate ways And live apart Because I have tried And I have fought I have met many men And left them distraught Because they are not the ones on my mind You are.
I still get that Good thing That I felt That butterfly crawling up to my throat I still get the giddy little jump Where my hearts bounced out of my skin I still get that good thing I still get that Warm feeling Around my arms Like I’m healing A ray of sun inside my … Continue reading Good thing #poem #poetry #amwriting
You can have it all I am done After all this effort You have won This is it And I am done.
For I have cried A thousand tears A thousand times A thousand days I have cried I toss and I turn I cannot sleep I cannot focus Think I cannot get through Another year Another life time With all this pain Inside my heart I am so worn down I am so lost I cannot … Continue reading Why can’t I be happy #poetry #poem #amwriting
When I woke up this morning I wanted to say I love you But maybe you would not appreciate that As much as I do saying it So I wish you well instead I put myself in hell instead When I woke up this morning I hoped that something would change That things would get … Continue reading When I woke up this morning #poetry #poet #amwriting
Every time I was lost You was there to put me right Every time I derailed You told me to fight You said to me once That I just need a little time To find myself Surround myself To ground myself. You left a little note With the book you bought I stared at it … Continue reading Everything #poetry #writing #amwriting
I know Deep in your heart There is something there And wherever it lays It’s still there That feeling you had for me It’s in there And I hope It may return In time I hope you will Return In time I know Deep in your heart It is there And I hope That one … Continue reading I know #poetry #writing #amwriting
I enjoyed the thought many a time, I must accept our separate lives, In sadness there is blessing, and I am sure I will find the meaning to everything, in due time. I must carry on live as a mother, and you must carry on living as you will. though it is sad, that I … Continue reading the thought #poetry #writing #imwriting #Writer #amwriting #saddness #grief #goodbye
I dreamt of you, I fell asleep staring into the clouds above the boulevard I watched them until they drifted away and revealed the stars I listened to the crickets and the mice scurry I smelt the ash from the BBQ further down the street I smiled when the work men finally put down their … Continue reading A dream
The second I hear your voice I know that I am alive And you know the power of your tone It’s a shame you don’t use it anymore. The second I hear your voice I know it will all come back And all this tit for tat we deserve more than that But you throw … Continue reading The second I hear your voice
He wants that type of love Where when you wake up Your always on their mind He wants that true connection where if there is something off or wrong The other person can telepathically tell That sort of realtionship Where if your in hell then they’re in hell as well. He wants that type of … Continue reading HE WANTS
When you ever doubt the creaking stairs Just know That I believe in you when you wish that you could have heard Just know That I believe in you When I have gone and left this earth Please know I still believe in you When you are in your new world And lost for words … Continue reading Going forward