You abused me till it became amusing, time-consuming, hopelessly bruised, and that's when it hit me. You left me I had no control just some post stick notes on the bedroom wall, and that's when it hit me. You consumed me till I could no longer see, forgetting how to swim, you all … Continue reading that’s when it hit me
When I see your face It sends me off the scent And when I hear your voice I feel a sense of calm A wave of never ending softness Within you touch Gently Tiptoes around my body Senselessly Tickling like duck feathers I know I think too much But there is no thinking involved when … Continue reading obsessed ( in my first book I had a baby on Amazon)
I am purposely picky and some times I draw out faults, that aren't there but I am scared. and I dont know what else to think, its confusing and time consuming and sometimes I wish my thoughts would just STOP. I am purposely picky because I dont want to get hurt, it takes too … Continue reading purposely picky
excuses and stories are a way for your mind to escape the truths and the tales, and your scared your fucking frightened, but you shouldn't be if only you could trust in me.
You've never been loved never felt a real touch or a real women show you her true emotions never felt like you was entirely intact lacked comfort in the bedroom spinning head in the world of day anxiety you seem to think is foreign to a man hand shakes give it away and the shallow … Continue reading No Psychologist 01/03/19
So here it is, my blurry vision, fresh of the breakfast table, its not my nutrition diet, not my eyesight, that's fine there's nothing wrong with my eyes, it's the fuzzy blurry scary light headed over whelming feeling, inside my body, time after time. Shopping centre panic and over filled buses, doctors surgery waiting room, … Continue reading Blurry Vision aka anxious 5/10/19
Dear Reader, It’s Thursday March 26th, 2020 and on Monday the UK issued ‘lock down’ for 3 weeks, which could be longer, no one really knows, because of a new strain of virus called Covid-19. This has been the most significant global emergency since the world war. Many people have been panic … Continue reading My letter in the new book ‘for you’
Dear, ...recent weeks have been overwhelming but powerful, exciting, enjoyable. I feel like I am on top of the world and I appreciate that this feeling can come and go but right now I feel very comfortable with things more than I have been for maybe 8 years. ugly times I know will come and … Continue reading opportunity, Feb 2020
right now I'd do anything I'd give my self away just to be heard again right now I'd do anything. I'd steal I'd beg I'd plead just to get this one thing that I need. right now I'd be more than happy to offer, all my life for love it has no price and I … Continue reading i’d give love, for arms
emergency surgery : ~ my hero.. is a man in blue uniform, a name I won't recall, what I have left from being under the knife, scars are a reminder of my hero's work, he gave me chance to live my life, for what he did im really glad, I wish I could thank him … Continue reading my hero is a man in blue uniform
For the best part things seemed to be bubbling over for me mentally. In reflection Summer greated us with tremendous thunder storms. I remember you texting me one evening when you went round the corner to play warhammer games with a friend. The lightening was so bright and the thunder was a beautiful drumming sound … Continue reading I was anxious-Part 23- theres always rain after a storm.
I should probably go out But I don’t feel there’s anywhere to go That I belong And I did this once or twice before Then I had people knocking at the door All I’d give is to be alone But at the same time to be at the other end of your phone Just so … Continue reading Rubber ball