I made you friendly Melted your feeble heart And in return You gave me broken shards of glass I held them tight in my grip Almost bled to death
In fact I was so sure you would never hurt me, I was so sure you would never ever ever let me down, perhaps I am in shock.
Wish you’d make it better.
I keep wondering if you regret the way you treated me, And if I didn’t see it as bad behaviour because I’d already been pretty badly abused previously. I used to blame you for the way you was. Now I don’t care. I don’t forgive you. I think it was awful that you told me … Continue reading M
I walked passed the church And I saw your face again On the way to the fair You boasted about how you told her Everything about me You kept mentioning how you thought I was amazing But never actually loved me. You vanished. When you tried to get into my clothes again. And I stopped … Continue reading t
The cars sound like the River Humber Waves rolling down the street I close my eyes and for a moment I am standing on Cleethorpes Beach We walk along The River Humber And at that moment I wasn’t ready for love I wish I held your hand As we walked along Is that why you … Continue reading Close my eyes
I want a word with Cupid! I want to sack him for his job! See I think he shot an arrow, But the arrow, it’s got lost! I want a word with Cupid! I think he’s done it wrong! See the arrow, it was fired , But I think he’s been stringing me along. I … Continue reading Cupid 💘
You welcome me into your home Then throw me out into the cold I am now homeless with no where to go No fixed abode. You feed me and give me therapy You get me back on to my feet From street crime and misery No fixed abode. I get swept into the windy rain … Continue reading No fixed abode
I spent a decade In agony After what he did to me And now she’s not a child She’s becoming a woman Does she have to go? My baby girl. I know she will always be my baby My child But does she have to change so fast? Who do I blame? The person who … Continue reading Does she have to go?
Maybe writing Makes him see my pain He doesn’t like that So sometimes I hide away Then I don’t write But then holding it all in Makes me sad And you don’t mind me sharing My feelings You don’t mind me Writing about anything And you don’t judge me For being who I am Even … Continue reading Maybe he likes it like that.
This crazy world We live in Dives us to insanity I thought you was the one for me And now I see so clearly The only one for me is me And that is sometimes lonely The world we live is going mad The world we live is turning black I hope I will get … Continue reading Crazy world
I wrote you poems and books I laid sunbathed in sonnets Stitched fairy lights to fairies wings So they could see in the dark I weaved life sized mountains and forest landscapes from crochet Laid lakes and rivers with water coloured pencils Ordered then pre ordered then didn’t show up Shouted, kissed, shouted, kissed, shouted, … Continue reading Never enough.
Anticipation AnticipationHurts AnticipationHurts The bathroom tap drips to an unsynchronized beatAnticipation hurts. The water has changed I wonder oftenWas it something I said today?Or not at all? My mind wafer thin on energyI wish you wasn’t partly to blameI wish you didn’t contribute to the painBecause anticipation hurts! I am severely depressedWaking up is not … Continue reading Anticipation
Finally she sleeps On cotton sheets I haven’t changed since last week I hope she doesn’t weep Terrible twos is only terrible for 1. Finally she eats ? Food thrown on carpet floors My blood it over boils But all is forgiven When I squeeze a shoe on to her feet And she doesn’t scream … Continue reading Terrible 2s is only terrible for 1
I am overwhelmed From being overwhelmed I’m exhausted And constantly drowsy I am alone it seems In a world of relationships That walk passed me I am isolated Desperate for closure Running around And getting nowhere Nothing is simple Nothing is straight Nothing adds up Nothing gives me time...
If you can’t keep us alive With mindless beating hearts Then what is love? If kisses and hugs held under moonlight stars Isn’t enough ? Then what is love?
For you I’d give you my heart Should your body brake, I’d give you my limbs If you couldn’t breathe, I’d give you my lungs Needed peace of mind, I’d give you no doubt For you I would love you entirely so From the tips of your body to the roots of your soul I … Continue reading All.
My grandad used to call me 'big gob', Sticking my nose where it shouldn't be 'Should keep out of the way' Probably because he didn't want me to find out the truth He joked a lot about being keeping 'sane' Staying young meant you didn't have to put up with peoples bullshit and horrible behaviours. … Continue reading ‘Big gob’
And that was it another experience Gone and passed
Animal friends : Cats and dogs He licks your handAnd she cries at the door,Constant affectionWho’d want anything more? Terrible animal fartsThey both do that too,Constantly crying and nagging for food. He walks beside youAnd she climbs the trees! He catches the ballAnd she brings me dead things. Complete polar oppositesBut with 4 paws and … Continue reading Cats and dogs
I feel like I’ve had a cannonball Shot through me I have a huge hole That everyone can see I feel limbless Lifeless Floppy Intensely tired Groggy I’m angry at you Then I’m angry at myself Then I’m angry at everybody else. I try so hard to forgive you Because I want to Because I … Continue reading Cannonball
It doesn’t matter How many times I take them to the park To calm them down When I return You still haven’t moved a muscle You was testing my abilities even then To be a single mum.
For I have cried A thousand tears A thousand times A thousand days I have cried I toss and I turn I cannot sleep I cannot focus Think I cannot get through Another year Another life time With all this pain Inside my heart I am so worn down I am so lost I cannot … Continue reading Why can’t I be happy #poetry #poem #amwriting
When I woke up this morning I wanted to say I love you But maybe you would not appreciate that As much as I do saying it So I wish you well instead I put myself in hell instead When I woke up this morning I hoped that something would change That things would get … Continue reading When I woke up this morning #poetry #poet #amwriting